Welcome

Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does. Everything has been figured out, except how to live. One always dies too soon or too late. And yet, life is there, finished. The line is drawn, and it must all be added up. You are nothing other than your life. There is only one day left, always starting over. It is given to us at dawn and taken away from us at dusk. We do not know what we want and yet we are responsible for what we are, that is the fact. When you live alone you no longer know what it is to tell a story: the plausible disappears at the same time as the friends. You let events flow by too.Suddenly you see people appear who speak and then go away; you plunge into stories of which you can't make head or tail. You'd make a terrible witness. It is true that people who live in society have learned how to see themselves in mirrors as they appear to their friends. Luckily, I only have a few...

Dr Shaw is a lecturer in Further Education at Edge Hill University, Ormskirk. She also offers philosophy courses at the School of Continuing Education, Lifelong learning, at the University of Liverpool. In 2015, she has completed her Doctorate in philosophy with a focus on existentialism, the equilibrium doctrine and narrative. She has worked as a teacher of English and Comparative literature and Philosophy at The American University in Cairo, Egypt where she also obtained her BA (Hons). Dr Shaw has an MA in Philosophy and Literature from the University of East Anglia where she also taught on a number of humanities subjects. Whilst working in North Wales in Further education, she gained a PGCE aimed at teaching in FE and HE sectors. Dr Shaw moved to Liverpool in 2010 where she now resides.

Interests: Existentialism, Narrative, Comparative Literature, Feminist Thought, Public Speaking, Arab Existentialism, Philosophy of Education, Art, Music, Film and Theatre, Greek Mythology, Existential counsellor and psychotherapist.

https://liverpool.academia.edu/ShereenHamedShaw


Thursday, 24 February 2011

Liverpool Fitness Boot Camp


*(See me at 1.34 min of this clip :) lol)

On the 24th January 2011, I made a promise to myself- as every year's resolution- to do justice to my body and be healthy. This feeling always hits me when I walk a distance and find myself surprisingly in agony whether out of breathe, joint pains or just general fatigue. I am only 26 for gods sake! Have I been too ignorant not to realise what I was doing to my body ? Well obviously YES! This has bothered me for a while now specially when I see a piece of clothing that I fall in love with and when I try on, it loses its beauty. And Yes, it is all my fault. So I decided to put a stop to my misery and try to free myself from the body that has been trapping me for so long. I joined Matt Ibb's Liverpool Fitness Boot Camp that takes place three times a week (Mon, Wed, and Sat) for 45 minutes in Sefton Park. Of course I needed some company because walking the walk of shame every other day was difficult, so I dragged along two of my neighbours.

First impression is "wow I am going to loose weight finally" I was confident that this is it, I am seriously going to make a change now. After a week of rigorous exercise and sweating like a pig, I noticed my figure looking slimmer. And because I took all measurements at the start, I found out by week three that I lost about 2 inches from stomach area (was 39 inch-now 37), bust (was 44-now 40), thighs (was 28-now 27), arms (was 13-now 11)...everywhere is just shrinking- and I lost some of my weight too. Great News! Following the diet plan which is basically eating vegetables- all sorts- and protein (fish/ red & white meat) was a challenge but I had to stick to it because I knew this is my last chance now to release the real me and I do not want to ruin it. I started inventing with the food list I was given- my favourite has to be Salmon salad (leaves, olive oil, tin of salmon...Viola! job done! Also now I like sweet potatoes mashed with some mushrooms on top (boil sweet potato, mash it, fry mushroom with olive oil for a min then serve on top of your mash- quick and easy!) Overall difference for me would be feeling healthier in general, specially that I sleep better now (probably from all this horrid routines by our trainer Dean Conner who knows no mercy) and I wake up without an alarm at 8am not feeling tired as before. So challenge two for me now that it is nearly week 6 is to carry on eating well- without skipping meals because I erm..."forget too feed myself"- and hopefully drop those pounds quicker by following more exercise and eating well. Funny I feel lighter on my feet now- Fingers crossed you will all see the new me soon! Who would have thought I found boot camp by chance! Many thanks...

Link to Matt Ibbs' Boot Camp:      http://liverpoolbootcamps.com/

Friday, 18 February 2011

A Night to Remember: Arabian Night

 
17th Feb 2011 marks the best party that Morton House hall of residence have ever seen!

This guest night event took place at Carnatic House Herculaneum Hall. I still recall the first day I agreed to take on the most challenging job of being a hall tutor for the University of Liverpool's halls of residence. Luckily, I am surrounded by the best people one could every meet. And I am going to make sure that I continue to stay in touch with each and every one of them. It is true that a friend in need is a friend indeed!

The event planned by myself and the hall students committee who are a dedicated number of students (4 guys and 1 girl- students of the university) have exceeded many guests expectations. Owl events management (http://www.owleventmanagement.co.uk/choose-your-event/awards-dinners-themed-parties/) were extremely helpful and understanding of all our needs. Their promise to help in every possible way is not in vain. They managed to create the Arabian atmosphere with minimal decor, use of props and brilliant lighting without exceeding our budget. It was worth every penny spent!








Entertainment for the event was provided by the fantastic Egyptian band "Property of Nadya Shanab" Nadya's blog: (http://nadyashanab.blogspot.com/) is worth exploring to get an in depth insight into Egyptian music, culture, and perspective on Middle Eastern/Western fusions conveyed in her music. My relationship with Nadya is one that I will always cherish and I am sure I will be shedding a few (possible a lot more) tears when she decides to leave UK and go back "home" to Cairo. Having been to the same university in Cairo, brought up in very similar environment, culture  and mistaken by everybody I know to be sisters- if they haven't already thought that I am the one on the stage singing, Nadya is one of the beautiful people who I will always miss and keep in my heart. Who would have though that I met with Nadya for the first time nearly a month before the event after communicating on Facebook and realising how much we have in common. I can only regret the years that passed without me knowing her and having her as my dearest friend. Although I will be upset she wants to return to Cairo to be with her family (something that I believe I should do sooner than later myself yet I feel I am still held down here by my studies and the life that I created for myself), I will be happy for her and I will continue to be in touch and go see her every time I manage to be back in Egypt. Music from Nadya's band that kept students yelling for more and up on their feet could be listened to/bought at the band's website: http://www.myspace.com/nshanab. I had to buy Nadya's CD because she makes me feel that I am not too far away from home...thank you Nadya for being a lovely friend!

Gavin Kendrick: Sound of Dusk
After the band "Property of Nadya Shanab" performed, DJ Gavin Kendrick played tunes that kept the students on their feet till 2 am!! Gavin is a Liverpool based writer and record selector. He has an interesting insight into rare beautiful music and the music culture. He contributes immensely to Shook music magazine and attempts to keep his readers updated on his blog: (http://www.soundofdusk.co.uk/). He also  host and DJ for Jazz FM  and also resident DJ in many popular places both in Liverpool and London. Having finally met Gavin after messaging on Facebook before the event in preparation of what to come, I am glad to say that he is such a friendly guy and goes the extra mile to make sure that everything is great. Thanks to him and his music selection, the hall was still full till 2 am.

I had to turn the lights off for students to realise that the night is over and they should go to bed.

Ishtar showing a special move
The belly dancer performed an hour in Carnatic House's own Carni-Bar which was thankfully full with students enjoying themselves and awaiting her performance. Ishtar is mesmerised by the Egyptian culture and her love for belly dancing has led her to explore this further and produce great dance routines. Not only does she offer local belly dancing lessons (http://www.bellydancemerseyside.co.uk/wb/), but she also hosts special events as an organiser. Luckily, I found Ishtar's website and she was happy to perform in our Arabian night party. The students were thrilled- I doubt they had such an opportunity to watch a belly dancer before coming University and the halls. Such a tradition that is seen as very exotic by the Western world. Thanks to Ishtar the feedback from the students was very positive and they absolutely loved her friendly nature, moves and interaction- I believe the picture speaks for itself :)


Finally, I am very thankful for being part of this event, proud of every friend who helped out and every hall student committee member who played his/her role nicely to make sure everything is superb. I can only hope that this event has showed the students that with hard work and determination, anything is possible. One should always aspire to achieve and maintain high quality/standards. I will continue to do so because I am sure that if my mum was in the event last night, she would have been as touched as I was with the president of students speech, everyones' applause. I continue to owe everything I do to her and everything I am...

Saturday, 12 February 2011

A message to the future Egyptian president

    By my younger sister: Heidi (born 1988)
Dear future president,

        Please learn from other people's mistakes and donnott let power corrupt you and/or cloud your judgment. Don't be afraid of your own people. Don't be merely a picture on the walls in schools and streets or just a name we hear about but can never relate to. Be more than a symbol to your own people. Admit that you have made a mistake when you do, it is never a sign of weakness, on the contrary, it is a sign of wisdom and humanity. Please show us that you can feel. Feel the people, feel their sadness, their happiness and really connect. Please spend more time in your own country, donnot be absent almost all the time.
Finally, donnott say you are our father, say you are a fellow "human".

Listen, Learn and Grow...

P.S: Don't underestimate your own people and never for a second think that we are donnot understand. We have proven several times that we are aware of all tricks so please learn.
                                                                                                                
                                                                                                    Sincerely,

                                                                                                       a fellow "Human"

The Egyptian Revolution

"Freedom is a blessing that deserves fighting for it." - Wael Ghonim, Google's head of Marketing for the Middle East and North Africa and the founder of the Facebook page that was said to have been influential in fomenting the protests, who had been in custody since 25 January. Now released.

Started by 25 January, 2011 – Day of Anger (Arabic: يوم الغضب‎ - yawm al-ġadab)

28 January – Friday of Anger  (Arabic: جمعة الغضبǧumʿat al-ġadab)  "The Day of Rage"

1 February – March of the Millions (مسيرة مليون masīrat milyōn): Tahrir Square ranged from "more than 100,000 to some 250,000- 500,000 people participated in the protests in Cairo alone. And  around 2 million by later in the day. The protests had left at least 125 people dead.

Muslims &Christians United for Egypt


4 February – Friday of Departure (Arabic: جمعة الرحيلgumʿat ar-rahīl)

6 February – Sunday of Martyrs (Arabic: أحد الشهداء‎) Muslims participated in Salat al Janazah (Arabic: صلاة الجنازة‎) (Literally: funeral prayer). Protesters in Cairo numbered in the vicinity of 1 million.

8 February – Day of Egypt's Love (Arabic: يوم حب مصر

11 February Mubarak's resignation was announced by Omar Suleiman and was followed by nationwide celebrations. Former Finance MinisterYoussef Boutros Ghali  fled Egypt to Beirut, Lebenon. While Mubarak and his family reportedly left Cairo for the Red Sea resort of Sharm El-Sheikh till flying to another country (rummours say Germany/Dubai) 

  • Vice President Omar Suleiman announced from the Presidential Palace after 18:00 Cairo local time (GMT +2) on 11 February that the presidency had been vacated and the army council would run the country:
"In the name of God the merciful, the compassionate, citizens, during these very difficult circumstances Egypt is going through, President Hosni Mubarak has decided to step down from the office of president of the republic and has charged the high council of the armed forces to administer the affairs of the country. May God help everybody."

"The people of Egypt have spoken, their voices have been heard, and Egypt will never be the same" - Barack Obama,  United States president

 Promises/Changes:

1. Finance Minister Samir Radwan said 6.5 billion Egyptian pounds (US $960 million) will be allocated to cover a 15 percent raise in pensions and salaries for government employees. This decision was made at the first Cabinet meeting since the protests began.

2. Omar Suleiman- Vice president- agreed to a plan to set up a committee of judiciary and political figures to study constitutional reforms. Results of the committee are due by early March. 

3.  Minister of Antiquities Zahi Hawass announced that artifacts damaged by looters would be restored over the next five days. He also said that steps were being taken to reopen Egypt's famed archaeological sites, which have been closed since pro-democracy protests started two weeks ago. Among the objects damaged was a statue of King Tutankhamun standing on a panther and a wooden sarcophagus from the New Kingdom period, dating back roughly 3,500 years ago. The museum, which is right next to the massive anti-government protests in downtown Cairo, is now being guarded by the army.

4. Former minister of the interior Habib El Adli faces prosecution in a military court over giving orders to fire at protesters and obstructing peace in Egypt, as well as investigating his role in the 31 December 2010 bombing of al-Qiddissin Church in Alexandria.

5. Unconfirmed rumour that Mubarak was planning a "prolonged hospital stay" in Germany.

6. Omar Suleiman announced the formation of two independent committees for political and constitutional reforms, both starting work immediately. One committee would carry out constitutional and legislative amendments to enable a shift of power; while the other committee would monitor the implementation of all proposed reforms. Suleiman also stressed that demonstrators would not be prosecuted and that a separate independent fact-finding committee would be established to probe the violence of 2 February. Also, wider press freedoms were under consideration and that he would produce a checklist of what was needed to hold free elections.

 Remarks:  

  • 80 Human Rights Watch-verified deaths at two Cairo hospitals, 36 in Alexandria, and 13 in the port city of Suez, amongst others. Some online activists have referred to Suez as Egypt's Sidi Bouzid, the Tunisian city where protests started.

  •  Downtown Tahrir Square was considered the protest "movement’s beating heart and most effective symbol.

  •  The breakdown of law and order, including the general absence of police on the streets, continued through to at least the evening of 3 February, including the looting and burning of one the country's largest shopping centres.

  •  Total death: 335 in all cities/villages.

  • The Egyptian Armed Forces enjoy a better reputation with the public than police, the former perceived as a professional body protecting the country, the latter accused of systemic corruption and illegitimate violence. The Egyptian military totals around 468,500 well-armed active personnel, plus a reserve of 479,000.

  • Finally, there is a strong mood for fresh elections sooner than the previously scheduled date in September 2011.

     

Saturday, 29 January 2011

A letter for tomorrow by Egyptian Rap band ASFALT and ZAP Tharwat -- كاتب لبكرة جواب

A letter for tomorrow
Unfolded carpet, thousands sleeping on it
Well off, say I am a liar
Afraid of pain, beaten by a wipe leaves its mark in our minds
I exist and I don't exist. Living without a voice
Laughing and they can hear, buying my death
A country that never listens
so my letter is my coffin
Writing a letter for tomorrow, afraid it will never arrive
'cause words in our country never reach
Afraid you won't understand and say I will walk further
Wearing a shirt of mystery that can never be clean 
cotton produced in my country, yet covers no one
Writing a letter for tomorrow, afraid it will never be complete
Life in the hand of God, cannot be guaranteed
When is life coming to an end, why do we not regret
Dirty money stays in the stomach, cannot be digested
Hunger makes rocks talk
When you're walking on your feet and the one beside you crawling, begging
Should I listen and laugh
When I tell the ugly he is "ugly" in his face, I am blamed
And when I cheat in secret, they say the clever can succeed
Nations sandaled. Doors refuse to open
See how many nations are close to be erased...

Writing a letter for tomorrow, it arrives or not, it doesnot really matter
for I am leaving anyway.
If prophet ‘Ayub’ comes here, he will not be patient, he will not bear living
If they say stay one day, honestly I can't...
Let stay asleep, still and never rise
Whilst our love to our country continue growing, never small
Even when I am in the country, I still miss it
I brunt myself with fire, but the fire never burns me
And after all this, they say she laughs at me...
Shall I remain in my country a hostage
or shall I leave my country?

Friday, 28 January 2011

Welcome the day of Wrath in Egypt

Many people may now wonder what is happening in Egypt and why is Egypt so corrupt. What is the day of Wrath? In a nutshell, for 30 years now, we have been ruled by President Mubarrak. One who managed to oppress every voice and promise others land and property that he claimed. He allowed greedy buisness men to sell and buy land, property and vital buisnesses that aid the economy. This privatisation has led to increase greed and widened the gap between the poor and the rich. Why did we live in a state of emergency for the past 30 years? Oh' I know, it is because we always say "better the one we know than another" familiarity is a curse! We never had the courage to say no. No to injustice, no to poverty, no to favouratism, no to greed, and definately no to a president who think he will live forever and rule all his life. Finally, the day has come- no dialogue, we talked alot in the past and all in vain. This time "This is It"! There will be no calm, no peace and no life without ensuring a better future for ourselves, our country and the next generations. It is time to change and never look back. Funny enough the news says "the US faces tough decisions in regards its relationship with Egypt"! this means that the 30 BILLION Aid going to Egypt will be reviewed! Is it enough for Obama to just call Mubarrak on the phone after his lame speach to dismiss the government and assign a new one, to tell him to "give meaning to (his) promisses"! It is worth clarifying that the problem was never the government, it is the President who has the last  word at the end of the day. He influences, bullies, controls and black mails. He appoints spies and undercover police/spies to tell on each other- just like big brother. How can we not learn from history? it is just another time where we see history unfold again right in front of our eyes, and again all citizens pay the price. If Mubarrak say he is "with the poor"- lets see how much he owes anddistribute every penny he has got on the poor. Why is he holding on to much on the presidency I wonder? O' I know- it is because the power has gone to his head and he thinks himself God. But there is a day for every mortal...and that day has already gone- now we watch.
Al Jazeera: http://english.aljazeera.net/watch_now/

Sunday, 16 January 2011

A day to rememeber: the wonders of Sensory Stories

"I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand..."
  -Confucius, Chinese philosopher & reformer (551 BC - 479 BC)
I have had the pleasure of attending Sensory Stories Training day at York University.(1) The one day workshop took place on the 15th January 2011 at the Humanities Research Centre in Berrick Saul Building, and was funded by Arts & Humanities Research Council (AHRC).
The workshop commenced by a talk on Shandy Hall (2) where Laurence Sterne wrote Tristram Shandy- one of the most iconic novels in English language today. The talk by Partick Wildgust, Curator of Shandy Hall Museum (3), was thought provoking in a time where education seems to be going through a 'silent crisis'. Students are victims of a materialistic time where making money is the ultimate goal rather than producing and communicating work that will benefit humanity as a whole. Wildgust, whilst promoting the works of Laurence Sterne, has gained vast experience in public engagement and interpreting Sterne's works and objects to a wider audience. He believes that "some objects give us the future and give us the past- visibly". Objects speak to us as a result of our imagination. They liberate us, intrigue us and open vast possibilities. But is the creation of our imagination what matters or can objects have significant context of their own?

Some believe that museums negates the objects' possibilities as usually there is an interpretation of the object, a note with the background of the object next to it- this could be viewed as limiting to some extent. But whether one prefers to experience with or without knowing its background, there is no doubt that objects and imagination make the perfect chemistry. The following session "making objects speak" by Matt Jenkins, who is a PhD Archeology students at York University, gave us another step further to get into grips with our experiences of objects and their link with sensory stories. Jenkins encouraged us, PhD researchers, to think about objects that we believe will be useful in our own research. The question in my mind was "How can I tell an ordinary person- with no academic background or knowledge of Existentialism- about J.P Sartre,Nausea and my research as a whole?" A fundamental question that I believe I will carry on exploring throughout the coming years of my work and study. The exercises give by Jenkins- to choose an object in groups to talk about it- was an excellent way to discuss objects significance in relation to research and stories that would be appealing to the general public. In my group, we choose an old music box and a collection of postcards. The tune from the music box automatically brought back good memories to Patrick Wildgust from Shandy Hall. He was reminded of his childhood and to our surprise, recalled the exact tune. The group mentioned how the public could become nostalgic hearing the tune and experiencing such an object that seem to carry a lot of stories from the past. For me, the tunes had a negative association- as I recently watched a horror film where children were enchanted by a tune from an ice cream van! The box, however, was nicely decorated showing a scene similar to that of Shakespeare's Midsummer Night's dream with fairies and angles.This shows that there is no limits on one's imagination when it comes to choosing objects to communicate a certain message, image or have a specific effect on the audience, as mentioned during the training day "there is no one story, but vast possibilities and there are all in the hands of the researcher".
Stephe Harrop


Henry VIII: Dressed to Kill
Having had the chance to hear others opinions and share our experiences, I believe we, as a group of researchers, were ready to see examples of public engagement through sensory stories. Stephe Harrop (4), scholar and story teller, started her talk in a fun and relaxed approach where she told a couple of stories from Greek Mythology that captured the audience imagination and reminded us all of our childhood. Harrop successfully bridged the gap through story telling between the academic world and public engagement. Her technique was an excellent example of conveying one's own research into a more accessible appealing way to the general public. And to reinforce Harrop's talk, we were given an hour session in groups to attempt to tell a brief tale to each other and present it in our groups. The response was impressive and Harrop gave feedback to everyone regardless of the time constraints. The message I believe from this talk was that researchers should tailor their stories- or research- to suit the audience, since talking to primary school children will require extra fun elements, mystery and engagement in contrary to talking to mature academics familiar with the subject. Thom Richardson, from the Royal Armouries, (5) told us about the importance of allowing the public to get a hands on experience of objects. This not only help the public understand the object and information given, but also have ownership of their experience and attempt to explore more. This may sound daunting for those working on rare objects in the field of Archeology perhaps where handling objects may cause damage. Richardson suggested replicas as a solution as it is another way of allowing public engagement. Next example of communicating research to the public was Iona McCleery from the University of Leeds (6). McCleery's research brought biomedical science, bio-archeology and medical history together. Her project "Your are what you Ate"(7) is in partnership with the Wellcome Trust which enabled her to reach a wider audience and get the financial support needed for such a project and the help/ expertise of many other professionals in the field. McCleery stressed that collaboration is important for research students because you gain so much working with people who may see things differently, which is something that the next speaker, Helen Weinstein, historian and media producer, encouraged us, researchers, to do (8). Weinstein told us about how research and 'Knowledge Transfer' projects are the way forward in research as they bring both academics and the general public together. The Institute for the Public Understanding of the Past (IPUP) internship programme (9) for instance gives graduate students the experience of translating the academic skills in to TV, radio, museum and heritage site products and exhibitions. And on the topic of copy right and intellectual property raised by one researchers among the audience, she said that getting our voice heard as researchers is vital but it is important not to give everything away. Being assertive and knowing how to suggest individual involvement in media projects means that ownership over the work is not lost and at the same time one shares such ownership with the public. Hence, Knowledge transfer is a two way process. And last but not least, we had the opportunity to watch a performance by Holly Clarkson and Kate Prosser, Contemporary dance students, who performed a number of pieces based on one of the researcher's work on Post-War. One piece in particular struck me to be an embodiment of my work, and I could not stop myself from expressing how I was touched to see a glimpse of my work brought to life bye Clarkson and Prosser. I was truly touched. The fact the I did not realise that the performance is associated with Post-War helped my imagination to associate such movements and feelings expressed in Clarkson and Prosser's duet to my work on self consciousness, harmony and conflict between the one and the Other. It was truly beautiful to watch. The whole day has bridged the gap between visuals in any form, objects/performances and research and I think that on behalf of many, it has been such a successful one.

And only when I thought I have hit a wall with my research and the world seemed to have come to an end, I see the light again, and it is all thanks to events like Sensory stories, where we are reminded of why we pursued the topic, why we fell in love with the idea, and why we should carry on.




(1) http://sensorystories.wordpress.com/about/
Arts & Humanities Research Council (AHRC):  http://www.ahrc.ac.uk/Pages/default.aspx
(2) http://www.shandean.org/shandyhall.html
(3) http://www.laurencesternetrust.org.uk/
(4) http://www.stepheharrop.co.uk/?page_id=94
(5) http://www.royalarmouries.org/home
(6) http://www.leeds.ac.uk/history/staff/iona_mccleery.htm
(7) http://wellcometrust.wordpress.com/2010/08/10/guest-post-you-are-what-you-ate/
(8) http://www.york.ac.uk/ipup/weinstein.html
(9) http://www.york.ac.uk/ipup/

Friday, 7 January 2011

A New Year, A New Start

Today we decided that living alone just the two of us is getting boring and we need something new to brighten our days and cheer us up. So we decided to give the RSPCA shelter here in Liverpool a visit. Looking for a pet can be the most stressing thing- am I gonna like "it", what shall I get? Do I want a cat, a kitten, a puppy or a dog...or a reptile..a hamster perhaps? Argh! choices choices. Sadly New year is the busiet time the shelters get because people who buy pets as Christmas presents tend to give them away or realise that they got the wrong pet home and end up abandoning the poor thing. Well really, it is not the pets fault, not at all...There are many beautiful animals who are worth of our love, care and affection. It is such a shame that they end up neglected and in bad conditions. Being in a shelter is indeed difficult. Anway, so after a long walk through the Cat's section- we found a cat who seemed very affectionate, yet I was still wary of their sudden movements. It is the most difficult thing when you don't know what their next move is. Whilst stroking her gently, I felt teeth on my finger. Although she was being playful, I thought to myself, do I really like being scratched ? Nahhhh I am a dogs person really... Just a shame I couldn't keep my dog throughout my childhood and had to give it to someone else who is allowed to keep it in their house. So after going to the dogs section- we suddenly fell in love with the cutest looking Rottweiler. Yes I know, first instance is ah dangerous dogs who look kinda scary. But no not at all. She looks totally stunning with distinct features and has a very nice calm temperment. The shelter said she is called Chelsea. But what's in a name..... She never answered to the name Chelsea anyway. We took her home at the end and called her "Bella"- our own lovely "Bella Donna" as Deian calls her sometimes. Excellent name for a beautiful looking 18 months Rotti- only to discover today by chance that she does not recognise herself in the mirror!! How can a dog not realise that it is "her" in the mirror! No not another dog on the other side- a mirror on the wall!! How can she go crazy looking for the "Other" dog in the next room (behin the mirror as she thinks it is) I was stunned. Now the questions remains: How can I make my dog recognise her reflection? THAT is a philosophical questions that I will be looking into.
If anyone believe he/she got the answer, please help :)


Tuesday, 28 December 2010

Now that the ice is melting...the show must go on

Now that the ice is melting life can resume again. Now that is gone, the hard wold begins...

Christmas is finally over, yet we all feel still. Who wouldn't love to be on holiday forever?

New year next and soon will be over. Am I excited? Can't really tell. I know one thing for sure though, I would have liked to have gone home...

I know I am home when I see my parents with open arms waiting for my arrival
I know I am home when I open my eyes to find my mum watching me in my sleep- I thought I was the only one doing it to my husband, Deian, which obviously creeps him out...it must be love...
I know I am home when I can feel the warmth and unbearable heat on my skin
I know I am home when my grandma insists to share a bed and wakes me up at 3 am to talk and catch up!
I certainly know I am home when I smell the beautiful cooking and taste the flavors of food made with love...
and I miss so much waking in my mum's room to suddenly smell her lovely scent and be able to lie down on her massive bed for an endless chat...

No matter how much I stay in UK, some things just never change I guess...


Image from:  http://www.wendmag.com/blog/2009/09/08/melting-ice-people-advocate-for-climate-change-awareness/

Friday, 17 December 2010

2011 SANTA

No one can escape Christmas this year. Shops bombard us with offers. Adverts everywhere "mix & match", 2 for 1, buy 1 get 1 Free! How can I escape every single persons attempt to get hold of the last penny in my pocket. As someone who has only been celebrating Christmas for the past three years, I cannot really say that I like it. I get stressed, overwhelmed, annoyed and irritated and frankly end up buying things I would not have bought on any other normal occasion. Things I may not need at all!! People say Christmas is a time for families to get together- but what if my family are not here? Then surely Chrsitmas defeats its real purpose...
The bad news though is 2010 has been a very very gloomy year in the UK- maybe someone would disagree here, but my goodnesss- not even the sun would shine properly- and even if it did shine, where is the heat!! For the first time in my life, I have fallen sick four times in a row in the same month! Like a camel in ice age- I am definately out of my natural habitate here... which makes me think...Is 2011 going to be any better ? Please God make the cold stop and put some heat in the sun, make the people nicer, make the shops give meanigful free stuff, make the politicians poorer and make everyone else richer. If there is any justice in the world...good things will happen.
Let us hope that Santa finds something to give this year...

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Remaining at the Door

“To learn and to think is to remain at the door. To assume the posture of the lotus is to come home and sit in peace” (Steiner 160)

The idea of reducing oneself to nothingness- remaining at the door- and admitting how little one knows (epistemology), in order to be ready for the process of absorbing knowledge is a controversial matter in moral ethical philosophy. By looking at oneself-  knowing thyself- one will be able, according to Steiner author of   Lessons of the Masters states, to be a “true disciple who  learns to follow himself” (117). Once that is accomplished, the need for a guide emerges to lead one’s quest and journey to mount the hill of knowledge, depart the cave of darkness and get out to the light. Hence, being in company with the guide and creating a bond between the guide and the seeker or the master and the disciple is a must for the success of the educational process. A masterpiece in medieval literature, Dante’s Inferno: Divine Comedy presents such a bond and highlights the disciple's fear during his quest. It is a must for any seeker of knowledge to undergo “humiliation and rejection before the Master’s acceptance” (160). In both works, Lessons of the Master and Dante's Divine Comedy, the disciples were reduced to nothingness as they were consigned to stages of experience in a journey that would prepare them for an ultimate goal, as they must obtain a state of “perfect emptiness towards the extinction of the ego in an infinite zero” (161). In the Divine Comedy, Dante narrates his journey that starts by being lost in the wilderness, his acknowledgment and confessions of being wrong and lost is in itself the first step that Steiner stresses on in his book. The masterpiece of the Medieval Ages reveals Dante’s experience and realization of being at one point in his life “strayed from the True Way into the Dark Woods of Error” striving for the first light he could find, namely the sun that stood for the divine illumination.

“Midway in my life’s journey, I went astray from the straight road and woke to find myself alone in the dark wood. How I came to it, I cannot say, so drugged and loose with sleep has I become when I first wondered there from the True Way. (4)

Starting from this point, Dante was eligible, as Steiner would probably claim, to start his quest which started by meeting his guide, Virgil. Steiner has already predicted the descent of a guide “from his mountain cave to instruct the three (platonic) orders of mankind: common folk, the warrior caste, and the philosophers-poet” (115). Thus, Virgil as a poet and, from Dante’s view, a philosopher, was assigned to be Dante’s master, guide, and instructor, this was apparent in the dialogue between both when they first met, where Dante says: “For you are my true master and first author, the sole maker from whom I drew the breath of that sweet style whose measures have brought me honor” (7). While Virgil replies: “You follow me and I will be your guide and lead you forth through an eternal place” (8). Therefore, both roles, guide and seeker relies on one another to be complete as there is no master without a slave and vice versa. In the process of teaching, the disciple becomes hesitant and reluctant about his ability to pursue his quest, such humbleness is necessary because it helps the disciple to reach the zero state of being, creates a realm of understanding, love, and appreciation from the disciple to his master, or a seeker and his guide. Moreover, Steiner ends his book stressing the importance of such relation when he says: 

“Relationship between master and disciple as sketched: the need to transmit knowledge and skills, and a desire to acquire them, are constants of human condition. Mastery and apprenticeship, instruction and its acquisition must continue as long as societies exist” (179) 

And as Dante shows how reluctant he was as a seeker, he narrates his fear of not being able to continue his quest, as he is a mere human being with limited abilities especially when it comes to unveiling the truth, thus, Dante seems to doubt having faith in humans’ abilities to see the light which is a core idea in theology in general. Dante claims: “I, one man alone, prepared myself to face the double war of the journey and the pity, which memory shall here set down, nor hesitate, nor err. Look at me and look through me—can I be worthy? May I presume to this high quest and not fear my own brashness? You are wise and will grasp what my poor words can but suggest”. (12) A proof of Dante’s doubt is his fainting throughout his journey whenever he is faced with any truth or reality, which is an act of showing the limited ability of human beings in general and the incapability of being faced with the truth. Besides, wondering where does this weakness in human beings come from? A typical ancient philosophical answer will say: from the world! And yet the world becomes the source of all evil that hinders one’s quest by creating obstacles in one’s way to the divine. In Dante’s journey the obstacles were presented by animals who carried different qualities, such as the lion who stood for violence, the fox for cunningness, she-wolf for lust and desire, and leopard for deception and fraud. Therefore, as Dante tried transcending a slope that gets him out of the Woods of Error to the light, the sun, these obstacles stood in his way, and thus he was able to overcome most of them, overcoming all was nearly impossible as mere human beings are always tempted by the world to indulge in error, sin and evilness. The idea of indulgence and awakening is vital in Dante’s work as referred to by Steiner who said that “to awaken in another human being powers, dreams beyond one’s own; to induce in others a love for that which one loves; to make of one’s inward present their future.” (185)

The whole teaching process becomes an awakening of the being to realize being lost. Steiner’s claims that one’s quest must be a never ending one, a lesson that is not over as one should seek more and more. Steiner asks his readers at the end of his book “is there no time for another lesson?” The only joy and happiness brought to human beings is through a never ending journey where seeking something is essential, such as the divine as an ultimate goal for instance. 

Finally, by the end of Dante’s journey, descending to hell and seeing the tortured souls, then ascending to heaven as the final state leaving his guide, Virgil, behind, as readers, we get an understanding of the transcendence of the character and the completion of his quest that brought him situated him back on the right track. Steiner even points out that the guide’s departure, Virgil being left behind, is a normal ending to any master and disciple relation, as the disciple has reached a higher state that calls for one’s solitude and responsibility as well. Steiner claims: “Now I bid you to lose me and find yourselves: and only when all of you have denied me, shall I return to you” (117). Thus, the master’s role ends and now the disciple must continue his path alone. Dante finally says: “My guide and I crossed over and began to mount that little known and lightness road to ascend into the shinning world again”.

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Friday, 3 December 2010

Thoughts on Ethics

Have you ever wondered in a specific incident if your action was right or wrong?

A fundamental question that comes up daily for various reasons in one's mind is how can actions be ethical

Are we all aware of what is right or wrong
Different books on Ethics present us with two kinds of ethics, normative ethics in which one looks for a principal or a system of morality that can be the basis of all ethics, and virtue ethics which is associated with having a good character. In simple terms all ethics deal with our actions and behavior, yet there are no certain rules for morality, but rather guidelines in which we are free to choose whether to abide by or not. 

Someone may ask What is a good action?
Many people would say that a good action is what brings you satisfaction. Others would say it is an action that has a positive consequence or an effect on another individual or the community in general. But can we really know what is good without having to talk about evil and what is bad? I doubt it...
The social perspective here is that society dictates what is good and what is bad which forms the unspoken rules of judgements which every individual abides by, or at least try to follow to avoid social rejection. 
A thought experiment: if a man was born on an island and have never met any other being in his whole life, will he know what is wrong and what is right?  Again, I doubt it...

So what makes us, human beings, obliged to obey a law or go by a certain rule?
It is said that rules and laws have no value if they are not followed, not acknowledge at all. This means that the man on the island will feel no remorse killing another being for food, taking some other being or animal's shed or possessions. In fact the concept of one's own possession will not exist at all...

There are two kinds of laws in our world, divine law and civil law. The first law is based on a total submission and obedience of a divine being/power that determines what is good and bad. We have an understanding of this kind of law only through sacred scriptures- We shall call this religion.
The second kind of law is man made. Throughout history we have shown our love for rules and laws that govern our every aspect of life. Some people believe that they follow only divine law as an ultimate form of authority which is inert in their psyche, but unfortunately one is bound by society and civil law from birth till death- unless one becomes a hermit and lives in a secluded island.
I have always wondered why the Pharaohs where seen both as kings and Gods. People felt fear but also obligation to present their best offering to secure a better future, a reward, fulfillment of a wish or need.

One answer to the problem of Ethics is to claim that in the case of a divine law, ethics is whatever the divine makes it out to be. Ethics is meaningless otherwise. While on the other hand, Ethics can be what every human being makes it out to be, it does not apply to physical objects. It is man-made and hence can be mistaken.

A strange thought: Many people claim that every person is genuinely aware of his/her own action whether it is right or wrong. For instance, a child tying a stone to a frog knows the consequence of the action. It is a situation in which there is no repair.

School teaches children to act good, do they really? I have wondered how meaningful are certificates and rewards given for acting good... Funny enough Derrida and prophet Mohamed said that one will never know if his/her life was good or bad until the last breath... what a coincidence.

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Monday, 29 November 2010

The UK Sartre Society's 17th Annual Conference

21st June 1905-15th April 1980

The UK Sartre Society's 17th Annual Conference took place on Friday 24th Sept, 2010 at the Institut Française [1]. The UK Sartre Society has been supported by the Institut Française which holds academic events on a regular basis in both, English and French. The society is organised by Ben O’Donohoe, the University of Sussex, along with Angela Kershaw, the University of Birmingham, as the society’s secretary.

“Sartre in Dialogues” by Alfred Betschart, an independent researcher into Sartre and Adler. Betschart’s paper entitled “Individual Psychology and Existential Psychoanalysis” highlights the influence of psychoanalysts on Sartre and his works. According to Betschart, Sartre’s psychology 
rejects Freud’s notion of the unconsciousness and the development of sexual drives, eros and pathos, which shape one’s life and determines all actions. Unlike Freud, Sartre did not consider one’s early years of development, between the age of 7 and 17, as important. The paper argues, therefore, that Sartre’s psychoanalysis shares more in common with Adler’s psychology than Freuds’ as both, Sartre and Adler, stresses on the importance of understanding human actions rather than claiming that they are consequences of past life events. Adler’s works present what he calls a ‘master plan’ where one’s choices determine his/her present decisions influenced by society and nature. Sartre shares this notion with Adler as it is in line with his Existential psychoanalysis where the Id, Ego, and Super Ego are not in conflict but rather committing life choices, which Adler calls in his works ‘life plan’. Betschart states that Adler’s concept of choices is not carried out by a rational thing but rather by a reflexive intercultural man, he says “man wants to be by God” therefore, he commits “life lies” in the form of every day choices. But Sartre took the idea even further in his notion of bad faith and says “man is God”. For Adler, man strives over superiority, while Sartre’s man claims that “hell is other people” and constantly competes with the other. “Did Adler influence Sartre?” is one of the questions raised by Betschart. In 1912, The Neurotic Character presented a fundamental plan of life, “to insist that human character and actions must be explained teleologically, separate goals coming under the dominance of, and oriented towards, the final purpose. This guiding fiction or purpose, developed by the age of 5 years, was to move feelings of inferiority to those of superiority—under the direction of the individual's unconscious but uniquely created self-ideal—as a constellation of wishful thoughts and imaginings of being and becoming strong and powerful; or, if overcompensation was present, in fantasies of godlike immutable supremacy”[2]. And between 1913 and 1914, Adler wrote The Practice and theory of Psychology where he mentioned an ‘inferiority complex’ as a consequence of man having to commit life lies as part of his life plan.

 “A primary inferiority feeling is said to be rooted in the young child's original experience of weakness, helplessness and dependency. It can then be intensified by comparisons to siblings and adults. A secondary inferiority feeling relates to an adult's experience of being unable to reach an unconscious, fictional final goal of subjective security and success to compensate for the inferiority feelings”.
However, Betschart mentioned that scholars and critics argue that there is no evidence that Sartre have read any of Adler’s works. In 1954, Sartre has read Malraux during the War which influenced his Existential psychoanalysis apparent in his works. The concept of normality has been the highlight of psychology at the time. Adler states that what is normal is what the community determine, while Sartre rejected the bourgeoisie life and deemed it abnormal. Finally, Betschart concluded that in 21st Century today Sartre would have not only been a philosopher or a writer but also a psychologist and sociologist.

“Sartre and Levinas: On Subjectivity”  by Anu Selvaraj from the National University of Singapore. Selvaraj presented her paper as a work in progress. She noted that Sartre have been considered by many to be a selfish philosopher while Levinas a doormat for others, simply due to their conception of the self and its relationship to others. For Sartre, one cares for oneself first and should not interfere with self freedom, while Levinas believes in the care of others before oneself.  Both Sartre and Levinas acknowledge that one is limited by the physical constraints in the world, yet Levinas believes that embracing those limitations lead to freedom. However, living on things we love is not enough to aid the formation of the self, Sartre thereby presents self mastery over the other as a solution, transcending biological needs and encountering others in a struggle unlike Levinas’s view of the world as a gift from the other. In Sartre’s works, the self sees the other but not vice versa, hence the self’s existence is disrupted by the presence of the other. The self becomes the object and the other is the subject. Notions like shame and pride are results of the power struggle and the realisation of the self as a being in itself leading to feeling alienation. Example is the relationship between the author and the reader, each require one another to bring itself into existence. The author requires the reader to create a freedom by a sense of appeal. This mutual recognition brings with it anxiety because there is a possibility of rejection. For the early Sartre, the self rejects the other hence struggles, while for the late Sartre, there is a sense of acceptance. Care and concern is important says Levinas, “responsibility comes before freedom”- subjectivity comes into being. The idea of the self is routed in others and is inescapable. The self is held hostage by the other’s encounter- similar to early Sartre. For example, the door bell encounter is a good example of an unmediated other that shatters one’s ego at the act of opening the door. Hence, the self struggles to accept the other’s world.

“Sartre and Women”: focusing on his relationship with Lena Zorina in 1967.
Sartre, Simone de Beauvoir and Lena Zorina
Sartre has witnessed his mother’s remarriage at the age of 11. And even though he lived close to her, he only visited on weekends from time to time. This may or may not have influenced, according to critics, his relationships with women and the struggle between the self and the other on a sexual level. In his 1940s war diaries, he talked about obscure and drowned women relations. Sartre expressed that he is bound to desire to write, he says “I write therefore I am”. He wrote that “by writing, I existed, the me who wrote”- he believed in living to narrate. Sartre’s women were mostly Jewish- perhaps he thought they have more sensitivity- free spirits, dependant on him financially and very beautiful. Sartre says he navigates himself on the sea of life without going under. He takes pleasure in women’s company, yet he says “passion scares me”. Many psychoanalysts related his lack of passion to his relation with his mother and the inability to make physical contact. Sartre, as the child king, the contingent of women were not enough for him, he couldn’t be satisfied with his female encounters because they were not motherly figures. He took a rather father like figure as they seemed to need him and be financially independent on him. For example, after having a relationship with a younger woman, he adopted her.

In 1962-1967, Sartre started a relationship with Lena Zorina who was a secretary and official interpreter in the USSR in line with communism. Lena said that Sartre saw communism through idealistic rosy glasses. In 1964, he refused a Nobel Prize and she thought he was naive to do so. She was not one of those drowning women Sartre writes about in his works, but rather a Jewish woman surviving under a totalitarian regime. She was very pretty. She had long dark hair, dark eyes and a deep voice- her sense of fashion was similar to that of Madame de Beauvoir [3] who was almost treating Sartre as her “baby” and was allowed to see the real him, he says in his memoirs. Sartre proposed marriage to both Lena Zorina and Madame de Beauvoir . He had a relationship with both women who appeared to be equal to him. Madame de Beauvoir said in one of her letters to Sartre that Lena is the only one worth of him if something happens to her. They had an intellectual relationship that could have been affected by Sartre’s relation with Lena fuelled by jealousy. In one of Sartre’s memoir he admits he is in love. In Moscow, he said she looked after him and he surrendered himself to the other. He repeats he had doubts about her love and fear of abandonment. He learned that he can be alienated. He obliged her not to worry about other women in his life and that his other encounters do not mean that he doesn’t love her- but naturally, promises are made to be broken. Even though Sartre claims that Lena gave him back his old fire, and that it is an authentic love, they have separated, yet he continued paying her a living allowance. Sartre associated Lena’s work as an interpreter as though she communicated with the world on his behalf. Lena refused to be the embodiment of a modern Russia but rather she wanted to be his lover. Sartre said that Lena was his refuge and he needed her to feel himself- unfortunately he said that also to Madame de Beauvoir - some critics say he was torn between child and man.

Finally, in 1973, in Paris, Lena visited Sartre but he hardly communicated due to his ill health. He said he only felt whole with her and Madame de Beauvoir . He enjoyed a sexual relationship with Lena and an existential fusion with de Beauvoir , with Lena he felt “happy, free and content”. After Sartre spent three weeks with Madame de Beauvoir in Spain, Lena broke up with him and he expressed that he will not be going back to the USSR....

[1] Institute Française, 17 Queensberry Palace, London, SW7
http://www.institut-francais.org.uk/
[2] Adler, A. (1929). Individual Psychology (rev. edn.).
http://psychology.jrank.org/pages/670/Alfred-Adler.html
[3] Sutkus, Antanas. Sartre & Bouvoir.
http://www.birkenfelds.lv/eng/page/182/